i hardly ever see jon now but wen i do and wen i do hang out wit him its really awesome...which is why its so sad cus we hardly talk and hardly hang out..i hope this doesnt affect my relationship wit godman in any way cus he is sooo awesome..do u ever git that feeling in the pit of ur stomach that says yea connie ur gonna screw this one over like ya did the last! great feeling yea i kno..its going on 7 weeks now..well see it was sept 30 wen he found out i liked him on the tracks of drake stadium and nov 1 that we officially became boi and girl or boyfriend and girlfriend..its hard for me to say still but is it cus i dont wanna admit it to myself or is it because im still new at this and adjusting to everything? hmm sumpin to ponder hey heyyy

i found this wen i was deleting crap from my comp
This may sound really minor but a friend of mine, Jon, got me a single long-stemmed rose. I was talking on the phone with him about something that had been bothering me that day. His roommate Stephen had to go to Ralphs and he had to leave right in the middle of our conversation which meant that Jon had to leave also. Well Jon felt really bad for ditching me even though I didn't think anything of it. Honestly I said "No, no don't worry about it. Go ahead." After they returned from the market Jon told me he got me something. I got all giddy thinking he had bought me a toy or something fun. So I went over to his room and he said "It's on the bed." I saw a rose and since I'm such a kidder I said "Where is it? I don't see it." So Jon looks at the bed and he makes this face at me because of course it is on the bed. Although I don't come off as the whole sentimental type, I really am and the rose meant a lot to me and it still does.