i havent written in awhile..since v-day actually..it was good and i wasn't unhappy wit my situation..i actually felt great that day, of course i forced myself though but that doesn't change much..home slice is good..its actually pretty great rite now, but i still exhibit signs of fear and anger too i think..my letting go of things past, it's all superficial..i've never let go of a thing in my life..i've jess brushed it aside and wen too much has built up partly frum things past that i've supposedly forgiven someone for but also frum the frustrations of here and now, i quit! that's why i've quit and why i've always quit.. i dont address problems and i jess throw dem in the closet along wit the rest of the ish and then finally instead of doin all the laundry i jess throw the dayam ish away..its been workin up till now and it'll prolly keep workin but wat does that really accomplish in the long run and the big picture..NOTHING..the ability to discard old "momentos" without a care in the world will catch up to u and by u i mean me!