It’s nice having a good friend walk you back especially when it’s really cold. It’s one of those things that remind you they care about you. I know it’s a given and that she’ll always care about me but I like it when she shows it. It makes all the things I worry about seem petty and stupid. I don’t feel bad for thinking them in the first place, because that’s just how I am and what I do. I expect that of myself, but yea.

The hardest part isn’t making friends, it’s keeping them. Even if everything seems perfect, that moment of perfection only lasts for that long, one moment. The worst is when I have too much time to think. That’s when all my doubts come creeping in. I know I have it good compared to so many people out there, and people may look at me and think yeah, she’s got nothing to worry about, but that’s completely the opposite of how I feel. I can feel so much love at one time for friends and myself and that next day or next hour I can feel like crap and hate myself as a person. When I feel like that, there’s no way that I can make anyone else feel good. I don’t want to make the effort to make someone feel special and loved. That only ends with me feeling even worse about myself.