gee Camille: you know those things that make your day all better? you did that!

im listening to claudia's tape frum one of her friends that liked her..its soooo sweeet..see that's wat i freakin want frum a guy..i dont want no freakin booty call even tho it's fine when im in the moment..its not me and i realize that now that i've tried it..see some things, u dont kno if u'll like it or not until u try it..for me, its unfilling when there's no emotional connection..well i've never done anything when i've had an emotional connection wit somebody so i wouldnt' really kno if its better but i think its safe to assume that it would be so much more meaningful if i had actual real feelings wit someone wen i actually mess around wit them.."mess around" i really dislike that term..it makes everything sound dirty..but its all natural jess like tea and oranges and birds and more birds..wat i want is to think i've found that somebody that "i've prayed for all my life" like in the KC and jo jo song..its not required that it actually be that person..i jess have to think its a possibility it could be them, but at the same time i cant think myself into thinking that that is the person i've prayed for all my life..yall mean? i guess ive not ever "really" liked somebody except maybe edmond..wit everyone else i was jess able to fool myself into thinkin i had feelings which i didnt really have..sucks to realize all this..i kinda miss jess goin through the emotions instead wat im doin now which is actually feelin them! ahoy!

woah..weirdness..i mean greatness!! and super duper coolness..im like chiilin like rite freakin here like hello! - jonathan lee..wata great line..how bout this one 'i dont wanna be a role model, i wanna be an inspiration' -brat-tat-tatney shpears! the one and only great one! things are lookin cheerio rite now.but hey hey hey we'll see i guess..she jess came in and like that it was almost like old..

the canadians were robbed of the gold in pair's ice skating..it was perfection and yet even that was not enuf..so wat are u left wit after that? how do u go on skating or wit watever it is that was ur love, after realizing this? i guess u'd have to tell urself over and over again wat ur self worth is..and knowing this should give u faith and confidence in urself..the approval and love of others should not come first..its the love for one's self and self-respect frum which everything grows frum and if u dont have that then everything collapses after the others leave u high and dry. by the way i fucked up on my midterm..thats the way life goes, so deal..its the ole me comin back..u betta watch ur back biosh!

something sad...

Memo Returns: there
Memo Returns: fuck
Memo Returns: i feel like crying now
Memo Returns: we are no longer friends

and then some..

Geecamille: yeah. we're not friends anymore