its been awhile, but that's cuz things have been like a roller coaster..first finals and then memo pulls a bunch of ish on mee..i was like wat the fawk are u talkin bout cuz i was in no place to hear any of that rite then..and then me memo camille and jon all went out over break..it was cool man! the awkward moments, the silent moments..i loved it it was great..now that we're back at school tho iono cuz its like we spend sooo much time together..u dont understand! i dont even understand..but wen we're together tho theres times when i feel inadequate and i feel like he's bored and tired of me and my constantly trying to say something clever..it gits me down and especially wen theres pretty/prettier girls around im like aww..cuz he's not social enuf so he doesnt git a chance to meet most of these awesome ppl whereas he was sorta forced to meet me cuz im always around his friends! his lips are so soft..but so wat! see these things i cant really say rite now because those are insecurities or some of mine and i should jess trust wat he tells me wen he says he likes me and i shouldnt be so self-conscious i really shouldn't..dood but i git a little jealous i cant help it cuz he's so good looking..i sometimes feel like he's too cute for me yall mean? iono..i feel like hanging out wit jing tho like a lot lately and a lil wit jeff..weird ey? i kno..i wanna make him jealous sometimes but i dont want him to hurt but jess sorta have him kno that i do feel good and confident about myself and that i dont think that im not good enough for him. wat will be willl be